Paranoid

It's been quite some time since I've been flooding my blog(s) with emo post..I want to put an end to it since I'm bore-ing myself too lol xD
*sigh* it feels weird today..I've been going to toilet non-stop just to wash my hand..What is happening to me @.@
My hands feel dirty 1 minute after I washed my hands..Probably just another sign of stress T_T
Or am I just getting paranoid? haha I don't know~

Yesterday I did something really bad & cruel..Which I still feel guilty of today +.+
My housemates cooked for me as well yesterday for dinner and I didn't know anything about it..
I went out to eat without saying a word O_O oh my..
I'm so cruel without even knowing it! Anyway I said words of thanks after that.. hehe
Lately I've been learning how to say thanks..I don't like to get all *aww* kinda feeling and so it was usually very hard for me to say thanks..I did it for the past few days..
I've learnt that appreciating what someone did was crucial..
but seriously if I've known about it..I wouldn't have to brave myself through the night for something menial as food -..-

It's the time of the year again!! Fah la lalala~~ Oh MY!
You can now officially think I'm going paranoid!
On 14th of April..Ayumi new album is going to be released!! YAY!!
It's titled...
Ain't she cute??!!
And yeah..from this album cover..She's going a lil goth
Ayu+goth=Kawaii!!

She even has tracks called Sexy Little Things..and Lady Dynamite..Omg
It's so not Ayu!! but hopefully it will be a good album..and and..she's going with the short hair like the one in Marionette again..Omg again!! I love her new style =P
There's a limited box set for the album which comes along with the new arena tour DVD and cups lol~..
The first thing I did after knowing this news is to go to the online shopping website to look for the price of this set...it seems like they've sold all of it T_T
I could consider buying it at least lar!! ISH!
The official price is announced to be 8,000 yen which is

8000 JPY = 285.848 MYR !!!

Okay I'm going to sign off now..It's earth hour buddy! Have you off your lights?
Yeah..I'm typing in the dark hahahaha~

Setar Bak!

Lol..I'm wonder why recently my post is all about my sickening thoughts hahaha
I kinda recovered from the mood swing I've been having these few days..Man..
it was tiring~
I don't really know what's that all about..
jkjk..actually..I'm going to shush! I'm going to keep it to myself :)

I don't get moody without a reason haha

Went Setapak just now to look at my future "Maple" with future housemates and addition of 1 guy
Hmm...I'm looking forward for degree! Since the house there seems decent and much better than the current "Maple" in PJ..boring place~

Well..*sigh*..the new environment doesn't look so promising..I mean everything I'm accustomed to here in PJ will change when I get there

This is the pic when i 1st shave my brow~

well..it looks shabby! but it'll look better next time =D

I didn't manage to do 2 lines since I accidentally shaved a thick line =.=

It's growing back and almost unnoticeable already

I still think it suits me regardless of what people may think..I don't care :P

Currently life is all about the 3 assignment..damn!

1 assignment is 50% done..but the others...damn damn damn! I haven't even read the assignment question for Management..*sigh*

God Bless me~

Change is good/bad

I took some time today..Picturing that I'm looking at the stars again
In the picture..I felt the tranquility again
After a crazy day..it'll probably turn my day to a good one
I can't stop those thoughts from flooding into my head
Why do people change anyway?

I know the answers very well
It's just that sometimes I just need something from the past back in my life because I missed them madly..
Well..too bad
They're gone
Whether I can smile now..Is my question now

Starry Starry Night..

Recently I had a few rare chances to stare at the starry sky..

I have always loved looking at the stars..Looking into the night where the vast sea spread out..

Winds blowing me off my feet..

Look at the sky attentively..You'll see them appear..Alas..What you'll see is the beauty of night

I'm completely alone that time..but it's that time I fully felt life is worth living for..

Should i not admit..I'm better off alone

I have much to think about..Perhaps..I could make a difference if I had not done several things

The past haunted me like a neverending nightmare..

I know there's no use thinking about it..

It blinded me of how lucky I am..but i'm never gonna get over it

If there's anybody out there who can save me from myself

I don't know if I'm calling out for you..I'm confused

Maybe I'm still better off alone..

I have dreams I wish to fulfill..Maybe in that picture I'm standing in the city where the beauty is mysterious to me, I'm smiling alone..

Will it be the end of this misery? It's really what I want..but what shall be my next goal?

I've made a mistake..not only one..

Forgive me..if I could not be who you want

True enough..It's not so easy loving me

Friends..will you stand by me?

Maybe you're all I need :)