sorry...

I know pain in the heart..It leaves a scar

Well yeah..I've gone through really rough moments..
Those close with me already know what happened..Zzz..
Yesterday was one the worst day I ever had..I'm obviously still hurting from what happened
but I gotta hide it the whole day just to avoid questions..Yes..I felt like I'm seriously superficial yesterday..I know
I felt so fake hiding my own feelings..but I don't want to let anyone see me hurting
I fell for a person

Well..this isn't really who I am..
I think..I should hide it so that people won't think Ron Foong is such a softie..haha
I knew I would be able to accept it..So i rather hide it and be a man! hahah..lol

Proud to say..I'm getting better d..

What to comment from the experience I had? I enjoyed it alot although it ended fast..and I guess a little experience wouldn't hurt although it isn't normal..hahah

Friends..if u know wht happened..SHUSH!!
I would like it to remain a secret between us =P

Haha..Also..this week I added 2 ppl to the list of ppl who liked me before..A list is fun lol..
Stop thinking I'm perasan ahaha..
Although people like ur looks..it doesn't mean they will like you..or your personality because it's wht matters..I know it pretty well because they say they like you but completely forget about you the next week..as a result, I can't trust a person easily
You are good looking..so?

Oh right..I want to express my dissatisfaction towards a girl in the elevator just now when I was heading home..Kajang..
So she was in the elevator & reached the floor she wanted to get out at..
Me and my roommate's back were facing her and we've got no idea she wanna get out..
After a while she sarcastically said "Excuse me!"
Got out and said to her bitchy mom "They don't let me pass through also!" in an angry tone..
Damn..Wtf right?
Some girls expect just a fierce stare can send a message to boys..I guess this was wht she did..
The mouth is meant to be pursed is it? Or maybe she had a bad day..
This is the problem with some people..Got irritated at random people because they are so blinded with anger..Zzz..
Seriously I will scold her back if she remains in the elevator..Stupid b****!

Sorry bout the harsh language..I'm filled with anger =.=..Can i slap her? isshhh..

Dwelling in my thoughts...

I just had a conversation with a friend of mine..

It was rather a good one and honestly I enjoyed it..It struck me that..

Although I had had a lot of conversation since I came to live in PJ..I never enjoyed them much

with exceptions of course for some people here..

Like for some people..It made me really wonder..What is friendship for them?

1 thing..They don't even care if they hurt you

I'm not okay with bullying..can someone smack that into them?

Or is it 2 semester not enough to let them know me enough?

1 guy even go as far as classifying me as no class in his friend ranks in front of me..

I don't really care cuz it's not like he has any class in mine either..

But it really isn't necessary to embarrass me like that..

They were laughing..I don't find it funny at all..

And I get treated as if I'm a driver..

He should know..I do mind..

When I said no..I mean No..

I don't owe that person anything..but he said i do..

He said he accompanied me to places..Please la..He was tagging along to buy his stupid stuff..which later on found out wasn't working..

And that trip made him say..I owe him..

He owe me months of driving his heavy ass for dinner

It doesn't apply to everyone though..Some are wonderful ppl

I was just pissed off by random actions of some ppl

Today while walking home alone..after searching for the book I'd lost..

I called and asked whether 1 of my friend have any idea who has been in the class..

The call ended off with a laugh..not me of course..

I couldn't even smile..

I remember the concern I received once something happened to me way back then when I was in highschool..There will be people asking what happened..Helping me through

Those moments are far gone..I can't seem to accept it..

Yet

Omg wei.........................

T.T

What the heck man.........

In just 2 days..It's already enough to make me devastated...T.T

1st day of the week..Monday!

I accidentally left my pencil box at printing shop..

I realised i left without it but didn't turn back to get it because I'm already late for class..

Since I was thinking that I'll be back there 1 hour later..I thought it wouldn't hurt..

That shop feller told me someone claimed it..

Someone wearing white, tall & wearing glasses..I thought it was 1 of my friend..

Then I found out it wasn't...

I was like WTFish don't joke with me...It wasn't a joke as I hoped so T.T

I successfully lost a set of complete stationaries (It cost me rm20++ to replace it but isn't complete yet..)

Also..another achievement is I successfully and gloriously lost 2 pen drive..

2gb and another 8gb..I don't really mind the content since i have backup..

But WTH man!.........my pendrive is precious to me T.T

Second day..Tuesday 5/1/10

Today..Arrrgghh..I lost a text book I borrowed from the library..

I think it cost at least rm50..T.T

I don't really care bout tht la..Aiyaaa.........this week I seriously used alot of money

Just now when I was driving back to Maple (PJ house)..

Suddenly the clutch go "Prraaakk"

I'm so lost that time..I don't know what to do=...=

At least that time I'm going slow and no car behind me and near a place where I can park

Thank God!!

I'm honest about my gratitude to God..I mean like what if I'm going fast and I've already turned to the downhill?

I hope tomorrow it isn't my laptop's turn to K.O.

T.T i had enough..

This is what i put at my car =...=

False Hope....

I'm truly disappointed & heartbroken after hearing the news...Beyonce has delayed her concert..

This was supposed to be her 1st time ever performance here..

Cmon'...if the Pussycatdolls performed here before why can't Queen B??

If she wanna cover up in super tight suits I don't care..I just wanna see her live T.T

I was seriously heartbroken & during the Czone concert today i kept thinking about how much i wanna see her T.T..It turns out i truly Truly wanna see her...Haiz

I wonder when will i get over it...

It's like...even Indon ppl is gonna see her...I'm praying for a miracle..haiz

I had given up so much money i earned to see her..now i'm getting it back..I don't really wan it..T.T

This...I solely agreed on..I don't want to say anything about this country (it's not safe! in case i got sued) retard

Beyonce was declared as immoral..i think that's why she don't wanna come

Watch your mouth people

"It’s good to see people standing up for what they believe in. So I was real glad to see that the bootylicious singer Beyonce has cancelled her Malaysian show after the authorities there had ordered her to cover up and wear “conservative clothing”. Fuck that for a laugh. Bloody Nazis. As if a woman in the 21st century can’t wear what she wants!
And anyway, what’s the point of going to a Beyonce concert in the first place if you can’t see her perform her outrageous onstage antics? What are the Malaysians actually thinking? That people would go along merely to hear her sing? Hahaha!
But Malaysia’s loss is Indonesia’s gain. Cos to make up for the Malaysian show Beyonce’s announced she’ll do a show in Jakarta on 1 November instead!" quoted from http://theunspunblog.com/2007/10/02/beyonce-malaysia-boleh/

Ahoy, all is lost, all is gone..March sailors!!..Tie the red cloth on bruises!

Anyway..had a fun day..I'll be updating bout my new place-to-stay during this semester until next yr..It was fairly comfortable..especially my bed :D

Went SingK again with cousins..then Czone concert, dinner with gays..

I actually wanted to join the flash mob T.T...imagine you walking in the streets & hundreds of people wearing green & dancing! How fun!..i really feel like doin' crazy thing today but didn't get to do it T.T..

Czone concert..I would rate it a 4/5stars i guess..above average..The last part was kinda fun :D

Surprisingly..the performance is entertaining :D

Gay went too..& guess what =.=...he did rape me..

Me & cousins went to Melaka not long ago (excluding a b!tch)..

It was enjoyable & get to eat lotsa new food..We ate things like giant sea snail, dono-what-it's called but just open up that animal to eat the eggs inside (which taste horrid!), laksa, o-jian (fried oyster i think), si-ham and escargot..

It was just a 1-day trip :)

See how black is his chicken rice ball!!

I like these shots :D

Lol..Actually this is for the high-jump thingy..It was closed as it was late already by that time..

We climbed pass the fence surrounding it and started jumping!

This is the best part of this trip..haha..It feels naughty..

Then the guard came & we go scrambling away..hahaha!!

look at this pic below...That's what i call PARTeY!!!

We had a ride on pirate ship..It was really nice & kinda scary hehe..
Will be updating about next week..Feel lazy nowadays to blog hehe..

Cousin WAR

Show secret text

A myth..

In discovery channel, there's a show called "myth buster"..

This thing i'm going to emphasize..Doesn't need those professionals to prove..

Friends forever...

What is the significance of this 2 words if it wasn't true?

I believe it applies to some people in my life..It wasn't alot to count but i know..

I have more than enough to have these 4 people..that I don't think will leave me

These 4 are really close to me...my best buddies

Well..I did not break any friendship..It's always isn't me

I did try..Somehow "friends" didn't even bother to ask/care/reply even

Did not bother to ask me to join

I don't feel like attending reunion..It pains me to be shunt aside

When i did attend..It's as if it doesn't matter..

That's why i declined invitations

There are a few who wanted to know everything about me..But never once did i know about them..Their secret thoughts..Why? They are simply being busybody..

There are some people who asked you who are you to them..You've just gotta answer that they're your best buddy..I'm still wondering why did i said that..Although i know..They'll be gone in a second after everything..They will never turn back and look..

They thought i was happy in my own life...The thing is..I needed them

Now..it's too late..my heart is moulded the way it's battered

These have been running inside my head for the whole day..I just need to let it out..

I want to walk away...at least with dignity

Time...

..There are some things i'm hesitant to tell..

I thought I was strong enough...Clearly I wasn't..I can't stop the time...

It hurts every moment because things happens...

Things that makes me happy..

I'm thinking..Why did I put myself in this situation? I thought it was the right decision..

Instead it hurts me more than ever...It's probably ending this week..This might be the last week..

Or am I making the right decision? It might be worth it to enjoy life as it wasn't supposed to be..Just for what seems like seconds..

Yeah...Life's now isn't what it supposed to be..

If I wasn't given a choice I would not have hurt myself this much..For now it seems too much to bear in my heart..

I did not want this to end..Anything I could do to stop the time..I did give in many things to have it..I would have give my all..I've done everything I could

It was over...I thought it was..

A whole new difference awaits..I do not have the strength to say what I should have said..

I made it seems like I'm okay...I'm not

It's getting heavier every moment..I almost could not hold it any longer..although I did..

I have phobia to being C..Those who knows me well enough would have know that connection thru technology means don't mean anything at all to me..Although it would mean the world to me..If anyone remembers this broken boy

When writing..I was hesitant to say that I need to say that word..

I'm feeling the C...something that I haven't felt for years ever since I found a stronghold..

The thing that means the world to me...Stripped away...I broke into pieces...

Again and again....Broken and hesitant

It was the word..That was once again taken away from my life..

At last...

I concluded...

It was worth it...Definitely

..I've never been so honest in my life

Surprise!

Not really a surprise Haha...Since it was days ago.. XD

As many of you know...I suddenly appear at SMK Reko for form6 on Tuesday....

I just wanted to kill time before going Uniten for E&E engineering course..I've said that i want to take computer class in the meantime but i completely forgot bout it! It was supposed to be today but I slept till 10.30 so I have to forget bout it haha..=.= DAMN..

I think I've made the right decision including going the form6 rather than going to work..I'm not money minded so...working is hell of my life mwahaha...

:) glad to see the J4 peeps at Reko but soon gonna go separate ways after school transfer...Time dreads along *sobs*

I must say...Going form6 made my life more meaningful..Instead of wasting time playing Devil May Cry...Arg...Been playing whole noon =.=

Although Form6 was tiring but endurable (:

Brain has successfully created a book club among J4 peeps LOL..Weird. =.=

Waiting for my life to change...I'm still not ready T.T

Seriously i hate this feeling DAMN IT...I hate my Saturdays now...

I'm dying of boredom!! I wonder why nobody else feels the same...

What am i thinking? Random thoughts

This is just another random post that just ran through my mind and i've stop playing Devil May Cry4 for a period of time(Oh Gawd i do LOOVE that game!! and Command&Conquer..come my house play la XD)..As i said..I can't continue playing games unless i read books =.=
These few days i've been stuck to the book "To kill a mockingbird" although i've been having difficulty understanding some pages and sentences here & there haha..

As my mind wanders...I thought back of the time of 5Dinamik class party..It was memorable in the way that...It was my 1st time driving alone..And..It was my 1st time fetching people as well ^^
It was alot of fun and at the end of the day Santhi msg-ed me and said
"Thanks Foong..Having a ride in ur car is more fun than class party"
Haha...I will remember that day : )

Posing with my car for the first ride haha

The steamboat at Peng's yesterday was smth to remember too ^^
I particularly enjoy the talk show we held haha...the meat too...I will remember the taste!!My dad has been rushing me to make up my mind about my future studies....
I have made my choice but in the end he'll doubt it...I'm sick of it...I've made up my mind..
I'm not 100% sure i'm making the right decision..But i'm sure of what i want...
Just hopefully i can make a bunch of new friends at my new school..
I felt as if i'm drifting apart from friends which i can't avoid..And my family too...I will be back every weekend!! haha..Damn sad

What it's like to be a freak for a day...

Yesterday night i was having slight fever...so i ate some panadol..I know i have allergy towards paracytemol...but i couldn't care less haha~ So i woke up with a slight swell at my mouth..zz...amazingly this time my eyes is not affected... I scared i will get my fever back so i wanted to try asprin(since i can't eat panadol...what else..zz) Before eating aspirin i was kinda worried bcoz i know that aspirin is a stronger paracytemol...Zzz..I was wondering...aren't they the same thing? XD i still popped it in my mouth haha

Voila...my eyes swelled like it got stung by a bee at both eyes..no..maybe 2 bees at both eyes..In the noon barely can open eyes..haha My respiratory stuff got swelled too...panting like dog all da time cuz can't breathe properly thru mouth..nose ...needless to say..swelled up so can't feel any air haha..zz that sucked

LAUGH IF U WANT...
haha...since i recover fully dy :P

lolss...my eyes too ugly..haha~.. I realised...I can't at all take it if i suddenly turned freaking ugly..I didn't want to go out..I only wanna cover up my eyes that day.
.So i wear sunglasses even when eating(to prevent laughter)
I wanted to appear like the pic above...but i can't cuz then i can't see anything at night O.o..So i just appear in my normal glasses since it covered up abit..They say i just had a lazy eye that day :D
I didn't want to take any pics when i go class party..anyway..class party was nice..just that it was too hot XD...if not i'll stay longer..no fans...zz santhi looks gorgeous ^^
gosh...i gotta love my looks from now on(altho not like those hot/lengzai guys don't care)...i hate being ugley haha
Now i keep on popping allergy med into my mouth XD...hopefully i can recover FULLY...since still got a slight swell...ARGH

My Opinion..

Lately I have been slammed with the questions on myself..
I have developed a few sense and principle after much thought given..
With all the early marriages and stuffs like that..Slowly, a free country mind has creep into our current society..How can we keep our heads up in these things..?
I have no answer yet
I have certain mindset from young..
I do believe that early marriages due to pregnancy has deeply scarred the integrity and the value of marriage..Marriage to me is sacred and forever
I do not fall in love easily..There's no value and significance in puppy love..
As Uncle Bob always said..Be with the one that will lead to marriage..Not nothing..You can only wait if there's none for you currently..
The proposal of a marriage has to be the most romantic and wonderful moment in my opinion..What if we proposed by "all right..We'll marry" when the girl said "I have your child"
Where is the significance of "till death do us part" vows anyway considering the divorce rates?
These might all be an old fashioned mindset.
But I know i'm right

This is What's Wrong..

What's wrong with me nowadays? 1 moment i can be really happy and contented with life and another i'll be totally blank...Everything i say during the moment can be very direct and i won't hold back any thoughts..I went totally blank and i was emotionless...Not wanting a single contact with anyone..

My mind is blank..Someone asked me "What's in your mind?"
I replied.."Nothing" as there's nothing in my head...even now..
I hate these moments...I'll be happily chatting but then when it came..It all ended..

The empty mind disease..does it ever exist? I want to know
I can't cry..There's no sorrow

Occasionally today...I felt someone punched my head...I felt no push..But i felt the pain..in 1 area the size of a knuckle..
Each time in different area around my head..What is wrong with me..I wonder
Maybe my empty mind just made it up..
The pain is real...I felt it..

I always had empty mind days...It happens occasionally..
But i'm ok..really
The only thing is..I hate it when it comes

ron~

Teary Day of Happiness and Sorrow

Yesterday was the SPM result day..The night before it, i thought i was in good mood and I thought i don't feel any pinch from thinking tomorrow is the day where 5 years of my studies will be judged..I really thought i didn't care..But i made a call to someone and the phone calls has a lot of pauses..It was really awkward so finally we ended the conversation with a relief..I just wanted to make sure she's okay..She's ok..
I thought i couldn't sleep well too but i slept like a rock :)

The day came..I really was just excited to meet old friends..I missed the good ol' days when i have tons of friends..They kept saying they are nervous..I can't believe what i did...60% i was acting nervous..40% i'm nervous actually..I felt so fake..But it's nt like i'm fake my emotion all the time la..It happens only that time..But i really can't wait..It's all so exciting! I got a fairly good result..When i 1st got it i was like hmm...quite good..got some A1's..then counted SLOWLY haha..I can't blieve my eyes..i counted a few times..Then syakir who was beside me shouted congrats u got straight A's!..I just join in the fun because till now i don't think that straight A thingy matters..and I realise i really am so blur..but looking at their face..I'm so happy..I turned on my super chatty mode later on..Walking around and talking to many ppl including parents i 1st time meet! But it was like super fun..I wanted to hug some1 so much that time haha..This is really something..

I talked to teachers..I'm really disappointed i can't talk to miss Harvinder..She always target me last time because i'm the weakest student in history class O.OI just want to thank her so much..She is the reason i read History books!When i was dubbed as the weakest in her class...I made sure i got an A in SPM..^^

We went out to old town..But it wasn't fun because there's too many people there..Can't really chat..But then we played bowling..It was like super fun to me hehe..Since nowadays i don't help them wash longkang so much..Just 5 times in 2 games i think although it's still alot..I'm also so glad Duck is back! Yen too..It's like missing pieces of puzzle are back..Welcome back!

The day after the result day..Many SPM leaver suffered the aftermath..Including me..Well i had a tough day today..1stly i woke up..It was raining...I felt the breeze..The soothing cold breeze..What a perfect day to sleep and i have to work!I ended up being late..It was nothing..There're like only 3 person in the whole office..My result news spread like wildfire though..As they came in they congratulated me..What can i say..I'm sleepy and tired..As i work till 3 in the noon..My eyes were so heavy i wanted to sleep but have to do the filing thing..It was tough as i don't know where each paper belongs to which file..I slack off sometimes..Boring!

I came back..i decided not to go ICGM as i want to look at the available scholarship and apply for them..Then i came to know a really disappointing news...That was my breaking point..I was teary..I can't stand it..My friend tried to prove that i was teary for nothing..The fact is still it's gone..it's not debatable..I felt a huge wave of relieve over me after i accepted the thing and a tearful session =.=

I can't bear to have anything to do with those stressful things tonight..I have to rest..physically and emotionally from all these weird things that brings about a huge change over my life..Many of my friends also had a tearful session today..and many in accepting term..

This is really a long post..But this is the phase in life which is very important to everyone..Adolescence..God be with us..For You will be with us wherever whenever..

Ron~

Anyway me and my cousin were looking at fake hair thread..When it comes to the pics below we agreed that it reminds us of Ju-on boy ghost haha..She's freaking ugly..Can't some1 beat some sense outta her huh.. =.= (this pic won't stay long..It contaminates this page haha)

I Thought..

(this person is forgiven hehe)

The Day When It All Went Wrong...

Yesterday turns out to be a disaster..
It was all a crazy and emotional day..I went with my sis to the bus station to fetch my cousin who just came from Kedah for a visit..We ended up at the wrong station in Puduraya..Since he's new in KL..He was actually at PWTC area...We took some effort to know that, reach there and rm5 of my credit making loads of calls...Wasted my money..
And i bought a psp cable for Rm80..i thought i can play game with psp on tv screen with it...
Finally...i check the description of the product and it clearly say "This cable does not allow game images to be displayed on a connected device.."
Rm80 flew away...just like that..

Anyway..It wasn't the saddest part..My friend send me a msg saying she just got her cancer back..My heart twitched because she was my close friends..She shares alot with me..I really appreciate her..
She say her 2nd ovary is going to be removed..So i asked her what about her hormonal balance..She replied a word.."Dono"..Means..She'll be getting hormone injection the rest of her lives..(i think so haha)
Nevertheless..She's so young..
She was so happy after she was healed from the 1st cancer..Now 2nd..I hope she'll be all right emotionally..Sincere prayer from Ron to my friend

Another is Yee..She also have been seriously heartbroken that day..You can read the details in her blog..
Q.Yen lost her grandma that day..

A day when everything went wrong...15th February 2009

Bad Day

Today is a bad day...
The technician was on leave so i can understand i have to take over his job..The problem is..It wasn't easy for me to solve!
4 problematic ppl came for today..2 of them was solved on the counter itself..so no biggie..
Then, came a person which wants his port to be activated...I thought it was gonna be easy as i know how..Who knows..The door lock is jammed..I tried to open it till i sweat...zz
The substitute technician needless to say..basically useless..
So i did alot of calling & this &that just for the door..Even walked so far for the key..I feel so bad for disturbing the technician who's on leave..he's supposed to have an undisturbed day..
It will remain unopened until Monday..Haiz..whoever the customer is..I can't help you..

Then i went back to the reception..There was a seriously problematic customer came..
He was like super frustrated..With his accent i'm had difficulty understanding his words..
I thought he had problem with login so i checked it..It was okay..Then he told me the problem is..He changed his harddrive and he can't online already..I was like.............
Totally speechless..I was thinking to myself..You expect me to fix ur laptop? What am i?!
I'm just a receptionist handling money..I ain't gonna fix no thing..This crazy ppl keep saying he payed for it so he must have it fixed..I answered "Can you wait till Monday? Because by then the technician will be here"..
He was like so pissed off and say things like "The thing is, I payed money for the service..So my money will be wasted.."
I kept quiet hoping he'll go away..I couldn't care less if it's HIS problem...Not the service...
SO GO AND GET YOUR DAMNED LAPTOP FIXED LA!!!