Ron's

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Time...

..There are some things i'm hesitant to tell..

I thought I was strong enough...Clearly I wasn't..I can't stop the time...

It hurts every moment because things happens...

Things that makes me happy..

I'm thinking..Why did I put myself in this situation? I thought it was the right decision..

Instead it hurts me more than ever...It's probably ending this week..This might be the last week..

Or am I making the right decision? It might be worth it to enjoy life as it wasn't supposed to be..Just for what seems like seconds..

Yeah...Life's now isn't what it supposed to be..

If I wasn't given a choice I would not have hurt myself this much..For now it seems too much to bear in my heart..

I did not want this to end..Anything I could do to stop the time..I did give in many things to have it..I would have give my all..I've done everything I could

It was over...I thought it was..

A whole new difference awaits..I do not have the strength to say what I should have said..

I made it seems like I'm okay...I'm not

It's getting heavier every moment..I almost could not hold it any longer..although I did..

I have phobia to being C..Those who knows me well enough would have know that connection thru technology means don't mean anything at all to me..Although it would mean the world to me..If anyone remembers this broken boy

When writing..I was hesitant to say that I need to say that word..

I'm feeling the C...something that I haven't felt for years ever since I found a stronghold..

The thing that means the world to me...Stripped away...I broke into pieces...

Again and again....Broken and hesitant

It was the word..That was once again taken away from my life..

At last...

I concluded...

It was worth it...Definitely

..I've never been so honest in my life

Surprise!

Not really a surprise Haha...Since it was days ago.. XD

As many of you know...I suddenly appear at SMK Reko for form6 on Tuesday....

I just wanted to kill time before going Uniten for E&E engineering course..I've said that i want to take computer class in the meantime but i completely forgot bout it! It was supposed to be today but I slept till 10.30 so I have to forget bout it haha..=.= DAMN..

I think I've made the right decision including going the form6 rather than going to work..I'm not money minded so...working is hell of my life mwahaha...

:) glad to see the J4 peeps at Reko but soon gonna go separate ways after school transfer...Time dreads along *sobs*

I must say...Going form6 made my life more meaningful..Instead of wasting time playing Devil May Cry...Arg...Been playing whole noon =.=

Although Form6 was tiring but endurable (:

Brain has successfully created a book club among J4 peeps LOL..Weird. =.=

Waiting for my life to change...I'm still not ready T.T

Seriously i hate this feeling DAMN IT...I hate my Saturdays now...

I'm dying of boredom!! I wonder why nobody else feels the same...

Friday, May 8, 2009

LoLness!! pt2

So....today was supposed to be the day the results of JPA scholarship to come out..

I checked at 5.38 noon and found no link to it...I TOLD my dad...It's not out yet...

Went to bathe after playing badminton with likHow n' Bro...

SO...When i was drying my hair and fixing it a little...I knew my super hyper dad is checking the website all the time...

Then suddenly he announced (shouting)"Ronald!! Ronald!! Got it liao!!" "U got it!!"

I was totally in daze...I thought i heard wrongly...I was downstairs so i keep on drying my hair

I was like "Oh F***'" hahahhaa

My mom was like "Really??". Then she rush up to see the com screen which says "Tahniah, anda berjaya"

She came down smiling and "Oh, Kor Kor going Germany lor" twice

"U can anot wan? Go Germany" thrice while i was placing back the comb...

I went up to see the Jackpot myself...Then....It turns out to be the page for announcement that i got the interview ONLY...Which was written clearly "ditutup"

So...the result haven't come out actually...I don't think i'll get it anyway Haha...You guys know why..

I was laughing at my dad's sillyness....Hahaha...He was giving a BIG grin before i tell him that he made a silly mistake..

Sorry to disappoint you daddy...Wahaha

ANYWAY!!....the latest update is...i check the moment the result came out...

I find it funny they write

"9106211*****, GAGAL GAGAL, GAGAL, no, FAIL" in a dialogue form when i click enter....Zzz...I wasn't disappointed... : )

It's obvious isn't it? hope u guys will get it^^ (not towards certain type of ppl)

Congrats to Q.Yen!! She's gonna go Korea!! ALL THE BEST!!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Stuck in the Middle

When i think about what my life would be in a few weeks time...

It stresses me till no end...God help me...!

Emotional distraught all over me..I'm being strong..Forgetting about my worries...

Sometimes i just couldn't help but be depressed over it..

I've gone thru worse depression..

Somehow it's promising that my God will help me pull through this time..

I need the strength...

One of the source of my emotional and mental strength has been shut down...

When i heard the news last Sunday that on the coming Friday is the last meeting for ICGM...

How my heart bleed when i heard bout it..

It was COMPLETELY unexpected and sudden..

Attending the last meeting was definitely memorable...Uncle Bob did not share that day..

He ensure us that we just need to Trust God...I'm really touched at the last meeting..I need strength and what uncle said gave me what i need...and Given by assurance of God itself..

We had some fun moment...And every second is amazing..

I had always love ICGM...It was the last...and will be my last attend such...although it will be reopened..

Tomorrow will be a Friday night at home...How depressing!!

I have the feeling that I lost many things...I'm going to UTAR and i felt all alone...something which even if Cheng agrees to go the uni with me cannot mend...I definitely am sad about losing friends but i'll get over it...Just like i always had..

I'm not so sure what am i losing

I am not anticipating for school...But i am...for new life...I am ready to be a person to step out in a campus life...

I love my old life...It's going to change starting 26thMay...there's time till

....I'm not ready in the meantime

Friday, May 1, 2009

Reflection

Haha...I just found something i would want to remember..
Urgh...i was really ugly in the past haha (proven here haha..)
It was the family trip in 2005 to Fraser's Hill..It wasn't the best family trip but the pics are so funny..Cuz every1 COMPLETELY changed except the dads and mommys haha..
So sorry for meishi, meiyee, my jie, zhiyi and every1 else in the pics...i know i'll be scolded for uploading those pics haha
Click on it if u want to view a larger pic haha