> Ron's: 2009

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Me Craazzee

So nothing much is happening in my life except loads of exams, going out & struggling to live
God...WHY..I'm dying to survive..Exams are just so much more annoying than some "people" haha~
New year is coming..AGAIN..
Honestly it's blady boring...=.=
There's replacement classes on new yr eve..and if I've not mistaken there's exam right after new year..Yeah...It destroyed my Christmas too.. T.T
Me planning to buy x'mas candy..I don't know why...Maybe it would help to feel Christmassy? xD

Cm'n..I won't get to have fun until my finals are over...Which is next year.......Arrrggg...
Whatever...I'm going to Conference next week for 2days and Daddy's B'day..Woo~
talkin' bout destressing haha..

1 more thing..why don't i have hairline like Channing Tatum..=.=
Then i would be bald all the time..
It's annoying to spend alot of time to make it look..Just a little not-so-weird

It's a wonder how can I go out so much when exam is only about a week away..My gosh...
I went to MidV to buy new year clothes..And..

I want to buy indian clothes so much...Any suggestion besides "British India" shop???..There's a shirt which looks freaking awesome but it's about 4 digits..which is about..rm1000
hoho

I stumbled upon this particular pants..haha~
So I went to Topshop..And I saw this formal pants..
Well...I just took it without thinking just to try.. I wasn't in an unsound mind to actually buy it =D
Imagine my surprise when I slipped it on..It's like.............SKINNY formal pants...
O.O
I know la my legs can be a women's but i don't need it =....=


What you are about to see is very graphic..
I'm influenced too much by the song "Bad Romance" by Lady Gaga i guess..(She's awesome +.+)
I was laughing so hard when I took the pics hahahaha...
HEY!! shaddap!
I just got a LITTLE overexcited Okay!!


No laa...........it wasn't my leg!



And and! I bought this shirt! Well it doesn't cost much..Just rm25 haha
I bought it cuz it's funny...lol
It says "Are you rocker? Going to rock with me?"
I don't know if anyone get the "funny" side of it though..
hahahaha
Lol! I was just having fun laaa...
Goonite!

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Free...

Today at church I fetched 1 of my friend, Mikha..

Upon reaching church, he was asking me to go up to the youth service but I hesitated..
I couldn't decide which service to go and he was like "pressuring" me to go upstairs..haha

So, I asked to be alone..And..I felt this feeling..
That I should stay at the main service..That God has prepared something for me..
I wasn't in a state where I wanted to be alone at that moment..So Gen was there with me..
Gen being there is enough altho we didn't talk much..
So today Pastor Chan spoke words that touched my heart..

I was going through self acceptance..I was actually going to think..
That what the world thinks is okay..for me
I felt like the queer one..Holding sex within the boundary of marriage..in college
Throughout my life..I've been shaped..to think so..
It was shaken when I stepped into college..And watching pond..Is like a normal thing..
But..It has always been a huge taboo in the church and my home...that's where I grew up
Pastor told how the world mindset has changed where foul languages are normality and sex indulgence is a normal thing..
I was wondering..Am I a person supposed to be in the past..Living today?
There comes the realisation..God has never changed..What he commanded..Will never change..
These sins..Will be a barrier between me and the One above..

What he spoke today I can relate to what I'm going through..
I can handle study pressure..but was never able to handle relationship

I am now..Standing up as myself..
I've lost the pressure to fit in the current society..
Like my hair..I dyed it..because I don't want to be everyone..
These are my values..That shall not be shaken
I can smile..when I'm true to myself

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Poop!

Well..I'm just going to crap a little..

A little perhaps.. heh..
I've been a little lazy to update lately..Exam stresses me out to no end..Dang..
That busy life started again..And I'm tired :-l

SO..I've been staying in Maple during the weekdays for a few weeks or perhaps a month or so..I didn't keep track..
And of course I had some opinion or I had a little piece of my mind to share..
Living outside is no-problem to me..I can adapt well
Still, there's still something I will not tolerate, will not accept, will not adapt to and..I found out..
It's just like a test..Can you be yourself out there??
With your friends criticizing the things that's a norm to you..
Or perhaps suggesting things to do that is written down in your No list..
I thought I can do well...But it gets on your nerves when someone criticizing the way you do things and the way you are..
Or do things..you HATE

I'm making my 1st point here...Of all the things..I HATE people scolding bad words..
For many people it's normal..
I grew up where people don't swear or say foul words..
Apparently...It was tough for people who thinks foul words is normal to enter a place where foul words is despised by certain people..
Did those people think about how I felt when someone who doesn't swears entering a place where everyone swears?
What can i do? I was brought up to be not comfortable with it

I grew up in a society where sex jokes even...is despised
Suddenly it was a totally different thing..Sex is a normal thing in college?
What? You didn't understand before you make the statement..
I need to adapt to the new environment while holding my values firm..
You are not them..So am I..

And..If you don't start treating me as a friend..I won't...
All i wanted..is this..Just start..or it will just be an awkward unwilling friendship
So i tried to be a friend..I failed miserably..
I was an annoying immature person when I tried to make a person smile..
Why did i do so?..
now i couldn't care less..

Stop judging me..
Although you are everything that I can't accept..I could see a good side of you which I focused on..Instead..you saw..nothing..
It's fine..I can live on


It's normal to complain about roommates..I certainly did & always did that..
I had 2..not-so-hygienic roommate..but whatever...I always scold them for being so..

So I'm labelled as "Tiny and dangerous"
You see..I'm not a simple being..Inside me i might be boiling red but outside might not..
I learnt..I don't like people using me..I might be selfish sometimes..
Unless it is a worthy investment..I will not go all over for friendship..
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I've got over my previous depression..
I found out after..
It wasn't worth it..Since the smile goes on without me..And I understood that
Now..I need someone to help me understand..Life
I don't want to be selfish, angry, depressed at times and unable to smile..
Going out into the world..I became like that..

Perhaps home..Will be a refuge for me to be selfless, happy..loving life
Which I currently do not

Home will be my home..
and the place where God is..


Christmas is coming soon..The day of the year of which I love the most..
It's not the snow, the tradition or whatever..It was the day God sent his one and only begotten son to the earth..
Which makes me wanna say..Amen

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Sasha

Wondering what's my title's bout? It's the name of the Mr Pilot in 2012!

lol...I just love his name =D It's like so...Sasha hahaha

I don't think it's that good btw..

Here's a conversation I had over msn with my cousin:

Casts:

Řδŋ~

[~_ZhiYi_~:[

Elaine (in case you don't know..she's 11 yrs old ONLY haha~)

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Řδŋ~ says:

u got problem? =.=


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ says:

??

what problem?/

[~_ZhiYi_~:[ just sent you a nudge.


Řδŋ~ says:

i hate u foong yi ling

=....=

childish

haha


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ says:

she really

ARGHHH

talk about her aso i angry

i copy the history let u see


Řδŋ~ says:

lol?

fast la...


* conversation started *


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ oi

why u online wan


Elaine : coz i gt computer??

[~_ZhiYi_~:[ u didn't go to school meh ?


Elaine : =.=

no need go 1

hahahaha


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ why


Řδŋ~ says:

hahahaha

then????


Elaine : i very smart d


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ hmmm

if ur bodoh oso didn't go to school la

am i right


Elaine : no

u r rong

if i stupid i will go sch


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ then

you are very stupid


Elaine : bt i nt stupid


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ i don't noe wat kind of person are you


* Elaine is inviting you to start sending webcam. Do you want to Accept (Alt+C) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?


Elaine : sure u wont noe

u got web cam??


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ you got on webcam anot?


Elaine : i dun have


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ i dun have oso


Elaine : then y u invite me

zzzz


*Elaine has canceled the invitation to start sending webcam.


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ i didn't invite u oso

u invite me mah


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ Elaine is inviting you to start sending webcam. Do you want to Accept (Alt+C) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?


Elaine : is "elaine is inviting

PLS LA

I WONT BE SO FREE


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ you oso mah

i oso not so free to invite you


Elaine : fine

i lazy wanna tok 2 u

coz everytime aso u will scold me 1

hahaha

i wan go d


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ who wants to see ur pig face

haha


Elaine : yaya

i told 2 i dun 1 chat wit u


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ u so historical

bb

oi

popo ask me to tell u not to play com already

go and eat ur rice


Elaine : pls la

sure is u


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ really la


Elaine : so "ke po"

tell popo i playing!!!

popo is beside me now


Elaine : u dun lie

even he beside aso

she*

she wont noe is me

zzz


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ i tell her liao la


Elaine : u don't noe i will help popo de meh?


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ oi

damn fellow

Elaine : seriously

i feel like

wan 2 slap u now

i dun 1 tok 2 u


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ haha


Elaine : forever n ever using msn


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ Elaine go away!!


* conversation end *


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ the end

in 10mins

i tio scold by her

kaw kaw


Řδŋ~ says:

=.=

like she scold u more lo

hahahaha

hahahaha


:[~_ZhiYi_~:[ says:

yala


Řδŋ~ says:

ahahahha


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ says:

i saying

i kena scold

zzz

tio-=kena


Řδŋ~ says:

i kept laughing leh

hahahahaha

omg.....


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ says:

SHE SAY POPO STAND BESIDE HER SO SHE NOE I ONLINE

I WAS LIEK WTFFFFFFFF


Řδŋ~ says:

y u go find her

AHAHAHHA


:[~_ZhiYi_~:[ says:

POPO ASO NOE MY NAME IN MSN???!!!

THEN SHE START @ BULL SHIT WITH ME


Řδŋ~ says:

u write zhiyi ma

=.=


:[~_ZhiYi_~:[ says:

zzz


Řδŋ~ says:

maybe she with yen yen here


:[~_ZhiYi_~:[ says:

dunno her la


Řδŋ~ says:

so geng wan shoot u


[~_ZhiYi_~:[ says:

she really

i nth 2 say

YALA

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Lol...the end..

Anyway..Went various places altho exam is starting next week T.T

Will update if i'm free lala~