TVXQ returns~

This is good news...heh..but there's a chance that only ChangMin and Yunho left in the group ~.~
Sigh..all this fight for money...causes heartache in fans..I read that some even cried..bwahaha~
Although all I wanted to see in that group is Max...but then...zz
TVXQ used to have a really good blend between the 5 voices..Yunho always sings the least..the way i like it haha..cuz I dislike his eyes >.>

without the voices of the trio who left..Sigh..I guess the songs would be pretty weak..
The recent album of the trio, JYJ...I didn't even bother to listen...English songs are not their ground for me..so far..I only heard chinese stations playing their songs..and the songs are..nevermind~
Now why don't they settle the dispute and get back together already >.> Hish~!!
I want them to take down some of the top crappy korean group like they used to..bwaha~
Mmm..forget about it lol~

I've been...doing stuff lately..I'm not so free in week6 and 7..Heck..I had 3 tests last Thursday..So I scrapped my diet plan for the week..as I'm too tired the whole day..
Today I have been getting adequate sleep..so finally I don't sleep 5 seconds after i lie on the bed..haha~
The reason why I'm so tired isn't only bcoz of the tests..I have been very busy arranging and planning outings and shawn's bday last week and then..the class duration is friggin long for me >.>..Last week was hell for me..I have to juggle between both..and Lord...I cried for help haha..Luckily there are a few helpers^^
and they didn't giv me trouble my giving me a "maybe" as an answer when I ask if they're gonna be present..
I've been so busy..I ignored my chat buddies...1 of them is really in need to talk to someone..
bt then..My mind is tired..
I am now enjoying a period of time of the day...where I can spend by not thinking anything..Just stare blank at the bed or smtg

I read an article saying that guys are capable to spend time doing nothing and...thinking nothing!
I do this always..and I was quite surprised to read that girls thinks all the time...
They never stop thinking...
When they ask their bf "what are you thinking just now?"
and their bf reply "Nothing"..The gals think that their bf is lying...haha
Girls..why can't you guys not think?! hahaha...I'm not being sexist..just that I find what I read from the newspaper funny...lol...

Goodnight~ it's 2am..>.> I wish I slept at 12...my energy is still half gone..haha..the effect of those tests +.+

Stuck in the Middle

When i think about what my life would be in a few weeks time...

It stresses me till no end...God help me...!

Emotional distraught all over me..I'm being strong..Forgetting about my worries...

Sometimes i just couldn't help but be depressed over it..

I've gone thru worse depression..

Somehow it's promising that my God will help me pull through this time..

I need the strength...

One of the source of my emotional and mental strength has been shut down...

When i heard the news last Sunday that on the coming Friday is the last meeting for ICGM...

How my heart bleed when i heard bout it..

It was COMPLETELY unexpected and sudden..

Attending the last meeting was definitely memorable...Uncle Bob did not share that day..

He ensure us that we just need to Trust God...I'm really touched at the last meeting..I need strength and what uncle said gave me what i need...and Given by assurance of God itself..

We had some fun moment...And every second is amazing..

I had always love ICGM...It was the last...and will be my last attend such...although it will be reopened..

Tomorrow will be a Friday night at home...How depressing!!

I have the feeling that I lost many things...I'm going to UTAR and i felt all alone...something which even if Cheng agrees to go the uni with me cannot mend...I definitely am sad about losing friends but i'll get over it...Just like i always had..

I'm not so sure what am i losing

I am not anticipating for school...But i am...for new life...I am ready to be a person to step out in a campus life...

I love my old life...It's going to change starting 26thMay...there's time till

....I'm not ready in the meantime

What am i thinking? Random thoughts

This is just another random post that just ran through my mind and i've stop playing Devil May Cry4 for a period of time(Oh Gawd i do LOOVE that game!! and Command&Conquer..come my house play la XD)..As i said..I can't continue playing games unless i read books =.=
These few days i've been stuck to the book "To kill a mockingbird" although i've been having difficulty understanding some pages and sentences here & there haha..

As my mind wanders...I thought back of the time of 5Dinamik class party..It was memorable in the way that...It was my 1st time driving alone..And..It was my 1st time fetching people as well ^^
It was alot of fun and at the end of the day Santhi msg-ed me and said
"Thanks Foong..Having a ride in ur car is more fun than class party"
Haha...I will remember that day : )

Posing with my car for the first ride haha

The steamboat at Peng's yesterday was smth to remember too ^^
I particularly enjoy the talk show we held haha...the meat too...I will remember the taste!!My dad has been rushing me to make up my mind about my future studies....
I have made my choice but in the end he'll doubt it...I'm sick of it...I've made up my mind..
I'm not 100% sure i'm making the right decision..But i'm sure of what i want...
Just hopefully i can make a bunch of new friends at my new school..
I felt as if i'm drifting apart from friends which i can't avoid..And my family too...I will be back every weekend!! haha..Damn sad

My Opinion..

Lately I have been slammed with the questions on myself..
I have developed a few sense and principle after much thought given..
With all the early marriages and stuffs like that..Slowly, a free country mind has creep into our current society..How can we keep our heads up in these things..?
I have no answer yet
I have certain mindset from young..
I do believe that early marriages due to pregnancy has deeply scarred the integrity and the value of marriage..Marriage to me is sacred and forever
I do not fall in love easily..There's no value and significance in puppy love..
As Uncle Bob always said..Be with the one that will lead to marriage..Not nothing..You can only wait if there's none for you currently..
The proposal of a marriage has to be the most romantic and wonderful moment in my opinion..What if we proposed by "all right..We'll marry" when the girl said "I have your child"
Where is the significance of "till death do us part" vows anyway considering the divorce rates?
These might all be an old fashioned mindset.
But I know i'm right

This is What's Wrong..

What's wrong with me nowadays? 1 moment i can be really happy and contented with life and another i'll be totally blank...Everything i say during the moment can be very direct and i won't hold back any thoughts..I went totally blank and i was emotionless...Not wanting a single contact with anyone..

My mind is blank..Someone asked me "What's in your mind?"
I replied.."Nothing" as there's nothing in my head...even now..
I hate these moments...I'll be happily chatting but then when it came..It all ended..

The empty mind disease..does it ever exist? I want to know
I can't cry..There's no sorrow

Occasionally today...I felt someone punched my head...I felt no push..But i felt the pain..in 1 area the size of a knuckle..
Each time in different area around my head..What is wrong with me..I wonder
Maybe my empty mind just made it up..
The pain is real...I felt it..

I always had empty mind days...It happens occasionally..
But i'm ok..really
The only thing is..I hate it when it comes

ron~

Teary Day of Happiness and Sorrow

Yesterday was the SPM result day..The night before it, i thought i was in good mood and I thought i don't feel any pinch from thinking tomorrow is the day where 5 years of my studies will be judged..I really thought i didn't care..But i made a call to someone and the phone calls has a lot of pauses..It was really awkward so finally we ended the conversation with a relief..I just wanted to make sure she's okay..She's ok..
I thought i couldn't sleep well too but i slept like a rock :)

The day came..I really was just excited to meet old friends..I missed the good ol' days when i have tons of friends..They kept saying they are nervous..I can't believe what i did...60% i was acting nervous..40% i'm nervous actually..I felt so fake..But it's nt like i'm fake my emotion all the time la..It happens only that time..But i really can't wait..It's all so exciting! I got a fairly good result..When i 1st got it i was like hmm...quite good..got some A1's..then counted SLOWLY haha..I can't blieve my eyes..i counted a few times..Then syakir who was beside me shouted congrats u got straight A's!..I just join in the fun because till now i don't think that straight A thingy matters..and I realise i really am so blur..but looking at their face..I'm so happy..I turned on my super chatty mode later on..Walking around and talking to many ppl including parents i 1st time meet! But it was like super fun..I wanted to hug some1 so much that time haha..This is really something..

I talked to teachers..I'm really disappointed i can't talk to miss Harvinder..She always target me last time because i'm the weakest student in history class O.OI just want to thank her so much..She is the reason i read History books!When i was dubbed as the weakest in her class...I made sure i got an A in SPM..^^

We went out to old town..But it wasn't fun because there's too many people there..Can't really chat..But then we played bowling..It was like super fun to me hehe..Since nowadays i don't help them wash longkang so much..Just 5 times in 2 games i think although it's still alot..I'm also so glad Duck is back! Yen too..It's like missing pieces of puzzle are back..Welcome back!

The day after the result day..Many SPM leaver suffered the aftermath..Including me..Well i had a tough day today..1stly i woke up..It was raining...I felt the breeze..The soothing cold breeze..What a perfect day to sleep and i have to work!I ended up being late..It was nothing..There're like only 3 person in the whole office..My result news spread like wildfire though..As they came in they congratulated me..What can i say..I'm sleepy and tired..As i work till 3 in the noon..My eyes were so heavy i wanted to sleep but have to do the filing thing..It was tough as i don't know where each paper belongs to which file..I slack off sometimes..Boring!

I came back..i decided not to go ICGM as i want to look at the available scholarship and apply for them..Then i came to know a really disappointing news...That was my breaking point..I was teary..I can't stand it..My friend tried to prove that i was teary for nothing..The fact is still it's gone..it's not debatable..I felt a huge wave of relieve over me after i accepted the thing and a tearful session =.=

I can't bear to have anything to do with those stressful things tonight..I have to rest..physically and emotionally from all these weird things that brings about a huge change over my life..Many of my friends also had a tearful session today..and many in accepting term..

This is really a long post..But this is the phase in life which is very important to everyone..Adolescence..God be with us..For You will be with us wherever whenever..

Ron~

Anyway me and my cousin were looking at fake hair thread..When it comes to the pics below we agreed that it reminds us of Ju-on boy ghost haha..She's freaking ugly..Can't some1 beat some sense outta her huh.. =.= (this pic won't stay long..It contaminates this page haha)

Thunder!!

I'm still working in Nottingham University..Just now i was shocked and scared haha
I haven't experience being so near where the lightning strikes for years now..
This time i didn't get to see it..But the thunder was so loud and it felt so near.
Then 3 lightning/thunder strike near my place.
The sound was deafening..There's 1 which strike the edge of the field which is just beside my office
Electricity goes off and some1 said it struck the edge..Wow..I don't wanna see it as the lightning and thunder continues.

I wonder...is lightning really white in colour?
Few years back there's 1 which strike near my house..
I was sitting at the couch and i looked up..I saw the sky..possibly the whole image is in fire-y orange..then it turns black(because there's a blackout)
it's cool too see it in such short distance tho :)

Tomorrow's the much awaited SPM result day..hopefully every1 get good result^^