> Ron's: May 2009

Saturday, May 30, 2009

How's life?

Ahh...This reminds me of my evolution era(Form4, If you know me you'll know what i'm talking hehe)

In Form4 I attended English tuition in Mewah something something...
After tuition I will always wait for my transport with Law..
Well, that time i'm still the silencer of a conversation..
And he'll start by "How's Life?" and the loner me will answer "Umm, normal (smiles)"
Then he goes "Oh,.."
Haha...Those were the days XD

So how's my life? URGH...There's no appropriate words to say describe it..
Still in the process of selecting coll..I'm making a huge step (for me)
Just a few minutes ago I made the statement that I don't want to meet anyone O.O
OMG that's so not me!! I'm transforming to evil Ron haha~

Anyway..Sent my bro to church youth camp..Glad i didn't go cuz i'll be depressed to death..Not that it's not fun..IT DEFINITELY is FUN!!...I'm not lying bout it.I have always enjoyed church camp secretly..Hehe..
Well..MingJun & Gen's not going so i guess i won't be going too HAIZ
But somehow...yeah i don't want to meet anyone for now haha~

I felt like reviewing my secondary school life Haha..Just for the sake of engraving my memories here^^..Well..i do look back my posts and found it meaningful :D

Form3...I don't think I'm gonna describe it..Except that i found a good friend, Dayana.. Haha She's still nerdy wearing her spec that time..By the end of the year I got my phone and i really enjoys her company ever since :D..
AND I sit beside Cheng haha~ Dang it...Honestly telling..I Hate him that time!! WAHAHA...but now ok ler..I thot he was an arrogant one last time..or maybe he was? haha..but it doesn't matter now^^
Lol..No worries Kah wei..We're friends now haha
Psst: I kinda took away Dayana from him! She was his crush last time HAHAHA
(This lighten me up for now HAHA)

Form4,...I think this was the time i became friends with YanWay and others..Before this i was invincible in school haha~except for some malay girls it seems..
Went loads of tuition...Kinda missed the English tuition..But since Law didn't attend it already so I guess it wasn't gonna be fun haha..
I always sleep in Ms. Lim's class! So i guess in the end the class was changed to the night because of me always sleeping at her class in noon haha..Mr.Leong class was nice :D as well as Ms.Lee

By this year...I started to sleep in Bio, Physic, Chemi, Bm, AddMath, AND Maths(sometimes,..got scolded from Eliza haha)
Well, that's a long list ain't it? It's true that i sleep during these classes..Thus! Bad results in Form4 era..I don't sleep during Moral, Est, and English class cuz it's time for fellowship!!
Well, I did struggle to get an A outta 10 subs haha

I got to be friend with YanWay, Duck, Brain & Alex..Well of course not just them..I mix the malay guys too..No girls yet though..I'm a shy-pig!!
They're a lively bunch :D
Yanway being my source of anime(Oops..some cd is still here at my house)
Duck &Alex...Hmm...can't recall haha~

Form5...was the year that I changed alot..being talkative and lead a happier life..
I still sleeps in the classes i mentioned earlier..

Oh..beginning of the year I was really surprised that Aiman was gonna enter my class..Hehe..I really enjoy talking to him..Till he got independant and talk more to the malay guys..Haha..I still think he's kinda weird and funny tho..
Half of the year i still didn't talk to chinese girls..Haha..Shy-pig
Then things change...Somehow i can't recall :)

I victimised Mesh in 2008..Haha pity him!! but sometimes i explode..Just like that haha~

Well, what was funny to me is that sweet potato club used to study at New Era College library after class..Lots of talking making us lose the focus though..I remember that we went almost everyday..Girls not so..But the boys yeah..Those were...Urm..2months before SPM i think..
Not including kahwei yet at this moment haha..

Ohyea...including Choo's group study..well...The gain from the study group is OBVIOUSLY minimal..but we still does it haha~

In the last month..I went CRAAAZEY!! I realised i need to read form4&5 History from head to tail!!...I didn't know any heck thing bout History a month before the big exam!! and there's so much to catch up with other subs..Not to mention that I still sucks at my science subject..
Well...what can you expect from a guy who turn "Chulalongkorn" into "Chulalongkang"?
haha..I really studied...but in the same way I did not study till i faint or anythin..I still watch tv and do some gaming haha~
The main reason why i worked on History so much is that..I was the worse student in class for History till the last exam before SPM..I did not want to let Ms.Harvinder down by getting even an A2 :D

During SPM i needed the red bull or somethin like that..Cuz i really need to treasure every moment to read, read and read..Haha

Basically Form5 was a school life..Zzz...Did i hear boring? yeah..I guess my life is kinda boring XD
I remember that we always choose to go Times Square..God knows what we did there haha~
But YanWay's always the same..Gundam Wars *Roooaarrrr!!*(his sound effect..not mine haha~)

Urm..I also think that it's weird that i enjoyed the "Kilauan Mutiara"
I HATE that we need follow every rule n' regulations there though..But i enjoy the activities there..Urgh..can't write it all..It's too long haha~
Ohh...I can't resist to write about the "shipwreck" thing..
It was like..They tied up big ropes around us n' we're supposed to persuade the "captain" to save us so that can see our family..Of course..I noticed that the requirement is to cry n' i simply couldn't!! haha..Well..I just played along though..Only HalimCeria pass it cuz he cried like hell..HAHA

Most horrible sight is seeing syakir in his white undies posing like ghey with some other guys =.=
AND...HalimCeria with his half naked pic..It was published in the year book..EVERYONE AGREE...HORRIBLE

Gawd..My history is short huh..But dude..I would not repeat my school life again if given a choice..Maybe for campus life i will haha~..I don't wanna work!!..
I love recalling everything..

(This is so looooong...)

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Colored eyes : I

Yesterday i got my colour contact lens..Well i have nothing much to say bout it except that it burned a big hole in my pocket =.=
And....wearing the contacts process is painful!! And "awesomely" hard lol...
I "cried" whenever i wear it but after a while it's ok^^
Kinda regret buying it hehe...














I wore it only at my right eye in this pic : D (the cap is to cover my fugly hair =.=")
Oh damn...i'm really bored now : D Tomorrow go eat shabu shabu in PJ yays^^

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Time...


..There are some things i'm hesitant to tell..
I thought I was strong enough...Clearly I wasn't..I can't stop the time...
It hurts every moment because things happens...
Things that makes me happy..
I'm thinking..Why did I put myself in this situation? I thought it was the right decision..
Instead it hurts me more than ever...It's probably ending this week..This might be the last week..

Or am I making the right decision? It might be worth it to enjoy life as it wasn't supposed to be..Just for what seems like seconds..
Yeah...Life's now isn't what it supposed to be..

If I wasn't given a choice I would not have hurt myself this much..For now it seems too much to bear in my heart..
I did not want this to end..Anything I could do to stop the time..I did give in many things to have it..I would have give my all..I've done everything I could

It was over...I thought it was..

A whole new difference awaits..I do not have the strength to say what I should have said..
I made it seems like I'm okay...I'm not
It's getting heavier every moment..I almost could not hold it any longer..although I did..

I have phobia to being C..Those who knows me well enough would have know that connection thru technology means don't mean anything at all to me..Although it would mean the world to me..If anyone remembers this broken boy

When writing..I was hesitant to say that I need to say that word..
I'm feeling the C...something that I haven't felt for years ever since I found a stronghold..

The thing that means the world to me...Stripped away...I broke into pieces...
Again and again....Broken and hesitant

It was the word..That was once again taken away from my life..

At last...
I concluded...
It was worth it...Definitely
..I've never been so honest in my life

Surprise!

Not really a surprise Haha...Since it was days ago.. XD

As many of you know...I suddenly appear at SMK Reko for form6 on Tuesday....
I just wanted to kill time before going Uniten for E&E engineering course..I've said that i want to take computer class in the meantime but i completely forgot bout it! It was supposed to be today but I slept till 10.30 so I have to forget bout it haha..=.= DAMN..

I think I've made the right decision including going the form6 rather than going to work..I'm not money minded so...working is hell of my life mwahaha...
:) glad to see the J4 peeps at Reko but soon gonna go separate ways after school transfer...Time dreads along *sobs*
I must say...Going form6 made my life more meaningful..Instead of wasting time playing Devil May Cry...Arg...Been playing whole noon =.=
Although Form6 was tiring but endurable (:

Brain has successfully created a book club among J4 peeps LOL..Weird. =.=

Waiting for my life to change...I'm still not ready T.T
Seriously i hate this feeling DAMN IT...I hate my Saturdays now...
I'm dying of boredom!! I wonder why nobody else feels the same...

Friday, May 8, 2009

LoLness!! pt2

So....today was supposed to be the day the results of JPA scholarship to come out..

I checked at 5.38 noon and found no link to it...I TOLD my dad...It's not out yet...

Went to bathe after playing badminton with likHow n' Bro...
SO...When i was drying my hair and fixing it a little...I knew my super hyper dad is checking the website all the time...
Then suddenly he announced (shouting)"Ronald!! Ronald!! Got it liao!!" "U got it!!"

I was totally in daze...I thought i heard wrongly...I was downstairs so i keep on drying my hair
I was like "Oh F***'" hahahhaa

My mom was like "Really??". Then she rush up to see the com screen which says "Tahniah, anda berjaya"
She came down smiling and "Oh, Kor Kor going Germany lor" twice

"U can anot wan? Go Germany" thrice while i was placing back the comb...

I went up to see the Jackpot myself...Then....It turns out to be the page for announcement that i got the interview ONLY...Which was written clearly "ditutup"

So...the result haven't come out actually...I don't think i'll get it anyway Haha...You guys know why..

I was laughing at my dad's sillyness....Hahaha...He was giving a BIG grin before i tell him that he made a silly mistake..
Sorry to disappoint you daddy...Wahaha

ANYWAY!!....the latest update is...i check the moment the result came out...
I find it funny they write

"9106211*****, GAGAL GAGAL, GAGAL, no, FAIL" in a dialogue form when i click enter....Zzz...I wasn't disappointed... : )

It's obvious isn't it? hope u guys will get it^^ (not towards certain type of ppl)
Congrats to Q.Yen!! She's gonna go Korea!! ALL THE BEST!!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Stuck in the Middle

When i think about what my life would be in a few weeks time...

It stresses me till no end...God help me...!

Emotional distraught all over me..I'm being strong..Forgetting about my worries...
Sometimes i just couldn't help but be depressed over it..
I've gone thru worse depression..
Somehow it's promising that my God will help me pull through this time..
I need the strength...

One of the source of my emotional and mental strength has been shut down...
When i heard the news last Sunday that on the coming Friday is the last meeting for ICGM...
How my heart bleed when i heard bout it..
It was COMPLETELY unexpected and sudden..
Attending the last meeting was definitely memorable...Uncle Bob did not share that day..
He ensure us that we just need to Trust God...I'm really touched at the last meeting..I need strength and what uncle said gave me what i need...and Given by assurance of God itself..
We had some fun moment...And every second is amazing..
I had always love ICGM...It was the last...and will be my last attend such...although it will be reopened..

Tomorrow will be a Friday night at home...How depressing!!

I have the feeling that I lost many things...I'm going to UTAR and i felt all alone...something which even if Cheng agrees to go the uni with me cannot mend...I definitely am sad about losing friends but i'll get over it...Just like i always had..
I'm not so sure what am i losing

I am not anticipating for school...But i am...for new life...I am ready to be a person to step out in a campus life...

I love my old life...It's going to change starting 26thMay...there's time till
....I'm not ready in the meantime

Friday, May 1, 2009

Reflection

Haha...I just found something i would want to remember..
Urgh...i was really ugly in the past haha (proven here haha..)
It was the family trip in 2005 to Fraser's Hill..It wasn't the best family trip but the pics are so funny..Cuz every1 COMPLETELY changed except the dads and mommys haha..
So sorry for meishi, meiyee, my jie, zhiyi and every1 else in the pics...i know i'll be scolded for uploading those pics haha
Click on it if u want to view a larger pic haha

We look so happy...Wahaha
My bro forever sleepy...looks so cute!! wahaha
Omg this was a really classic Jason XD
Lolss...centre of attention looking sluggish haha
Blurry but i have to post this up!! The shin-chan tshirt was my favourite!!
With peace
Dang it...haha
My sis and cousin(zhi jie)
They look adorable hahaha
Small sized Elaine XD
Here's the set of random picss that our family love alot!! I can't post the funniest ones..Due to respect to their privacy hahaha
Killer eyes and smile wahahah