Dwelling in my thoughts...

I just had a conversation with a friend of mine..

It was rather a good one and honestly I enjoyed it..It struck me that..

Although I had had a lot of conversation since I came to live in PJ..I never enjoyed them much

with exceptions of course for some people here..

Like for some people..It made me really wonder..What is friendship for them?

1 thing..They don't even care if they hurt you

I'm not okay with bullying..can someone smack that into them?

Or is it 2 semester not enough to let them know me enough?

1 guy even go as far as classifying me as no class in his friend ranks in front of me..

I don't really care cuz it's not like he has any class in mine either..

But it really isn't necessary to embarrass me like that..

They were laughing..I don't find it funny at all..

And I get treated as if I'm a driver..

He should know..I do mind..

When I said no..I mean No..

I don't owe that person anything..but he said i do..

He said he accompanied me to places..Please la..He was tagging along to buy his stupid stuff..which later on found out wasn't working..

And that trip made him say..I owe him..

He owe me months of driving his heavy ass for dinner

It doesn't apply to everyone though..Some are wonderful ppl

I was just pissed off by random actions of some ppl

Today while walking home alone..after searching for the book I'd lost..

I called and asked whether 1 of my friend have any idea who has been in the class..

The call ended off with a laugh..not me of course..

I couldn't even smile..

I remember the concern I received once something happened to me way back then when I was in highschool..There will be people asking what happened..Helping me through

Those moments are far gone..I can't seem to accept it..

Yet

Omg wei.........................

T.T

What the heck man.........

In just 2 days..It's already enough to make me devastated...T.T

1st day of the week..Monday!

I accidentally left my pencil box at printing shop..

I realised i left without it but didn't turn back to get it because I'm already late for class..

Since I was thinking that I'll be back there 1 hour later..I thought it wouldn't hurt..

That shop feller told me someone claimed it..

Someone wearing white, tall & wearing glasses..I thought it was 1 of my friend..

Then I found out it wasn't...

I was like WTFish don't joke with me...It wasn't a joke as I hoped so T.T

I successfully lost a set of complete stationaries (It cost me rm20++ to replace it but isn't complete yet..)

Also..another achievement is I successfully and gloriously lost 2 pen drive..

2gb and another 8gb..I don't really mind the content since i have backup..

But WTH man!.........my pendrive is precious to me T.T

Second day..Tuesday 5/1/10

Today..Arrrgghh..I lost a text book I borrowed from the library..

I think it cost at least rm50..T.T

I don't really care bout tht la..Aiyaaa.........this week I seriously used alot of money

Just now when I was driving back to Maple (PJ house)..

Suddenly the clutch go "Prraaakk"

I'm so lost that time..I don't know what to do=...=

At least that time I'm going slow and no car behind me and near a place where I can park

Thank God!!

I'm honest about my gratitude to God..I mean like what if I'm going fast and I've already turned to the downhill?

I hope tomorrow it isn't my laptop's turn to K.O.

T.T i had enough..

This is what i put at my car =...=

Have a Blast...

It's been like ages since I've been updating and reading blogs..

haha..I can't afford to lose some precious hours nowadays..

SERIOUSLY i tell you..I didn't spend time doing pretty much anything except doing assignment & homeworks..and studying a bit..

It definitely felt like I don't have a life..

Yet I chose to write the bottled bits of the thoughts on my mind now ..

So it will be 100% words written down from the bottom my heart..haha

1st thing 1st..Please forgive me if I haven't been replying promptly and keeping in touch although you tried..

I'm seriously busy studying & doing assignment till the extent of having 2 hours sleep a day..

When exactly this storm will be over? =.=

I had never worked this hard during SPM..In the past I would sleep in almost every class..Play online games and did alot of sleeping basically..

Now? I cried because I'm turning into a lifeless person..Facing my educational craps 22/7..

Oh my God..

Anyway..It's pretty much obvious I smile & laugh so less nowadays..I couldn't do it much..

I lost weight..I looked bony..Which my mom hates to see..

I just came back from the New Year reunion thingy with the J4 peeps..

I enjoyed myself and laughed so much during that time..It's a little shocking..!

When we were halfway laughing..I felt soreness in my mouth!

Realisation hit me...I didn't laugh so much nowadays..

Well...Sad but true..only they can make me laugh and smile so much and I kept wanting it..

Another sad truth..I won't be seeing them for probably months?..

God knows how much I wanna see them & talk to them..zz

I had a great time..In the past years I've always celebrated new year..Alone..

I really will cherish this..

I'm getting better with my coll mates..Somehow some of them..Annoys me

Probably it's because they need more time to know what I can't tolerate..the most recent one.. Plain rudeness..If it's supposed to be a joke...It shouldn't be rude obviously..Face this

Oh..there's a pretty amazing girl..I think she's an amazing friend..

I've always thought she was a complex one..but she isn't so much as complicated..It was a rather different discovery haha..

There are many assignment..but I think the reason I'm so busy is that I'm the leader for most of them..Damn...it's unexpected huh?

haha..

Well..I willingly took it because..I'm Bossy..As simple as that! haha

I don't think I have time for Love now..since i prefer sleeping..

Hoho..That day when I was sleeping, I dreamt that I was a gay..chasing after this gorgeous guy ahhaha...So it really made me wonder..What made me dreamt of it?

I'm writing at 3am now..In 1st January 2010...

I seriously can't control my sleepiness already...Goodnight everyone...

Have a blast in the year 2010... :)